Still no car. Still no final decision about a rental place.... But I do have friends, a place to sleep, clothes, food, and money in the bank. That probably puts me in the top 7% in the world right there. There are a lot more things I'd LIKE to have - but those fall in the category of conveniences, I suppose.
I did look at a place today, with a rent that is more than I'd like to spend while I am on my own, but it would be safe, and it would be a place where all of us (three kitties included) can stay until we know where else we might want to go... It's the best I've seen so far - that's all I can say. I guess basically I am culture shocking a bit. Houses here, and the standard of living in general, are SO not what I am used to - unless you have the $$ to spend on a more modern place. And anyone who knows me well knows I am not a "high-maintenance" girl by a long shot (all teasing by my husband aside). I am not afraid to roll up my sleeves and get dirty, and I am used to being creative and making do with what is available. I am also willing to adjust to our new home country, and in the long run I'll likely be happier for it, but right now it's all a bit much.... The shift from stopping the comparisons with what "I am used to" and what is now my new reality is the in-between time where the discomfort lives. The sooner I can stop that, the happier I'll be. Right now I am very much in the thick of that shift.
I know I sound like a spoiled brat, so forgive me, but I don't understand the lack of storage space and closet space - or central heating in houses here?! WHY would so many homes in a country that gets as cold as it does here (because let's face it, it gets PLENTY cold - and we're in spring!) use space heaters as a way of heating!? That's like heating a house by having a hairdryer to keep it warm. Yes, some places have fire places, some have thermal heating, etc. etc. - but a lot of them don't. And I won't even start about the closets.
OK... Well, anyway. I am looking outside the window, and the sky is a beautiful mix of blue and orange as the sun is setting behind the mountains.... The birds are chirping endlessly, and the Rhododendrons all over the place are bursting with so many flowers that I keep thinking the branches will break any minute. I AM in a beautiful place. I will come to know, one day, that all those things I miss and have just left behind are going to be replaced with things that will become even more dear to me.
I just need to flow and breathe. There are lessons here. And so much beauty that I haven't even begun to explore!